But today, I really want to post about this and it's about my grandad's passing. He passed away this morning and well here's my point of view of what happened. 

Last night, I slept around 4am? Reason being that I was being an idiot to myself and asking myself pointless questions and wondering whether I should ask my friend about it, I'm not gonna say what question it is or who that friend is but anyways, I did in fact ask that particular person. 

But at 7am this morning, my younger brother woke me up and told me to quickly get dressed cause my grandad has just passed away, or rather, he was found on his bed lifeless. I literally sat on my bed for a couple of mins in shock and just suddenly burst into tears, I haven't stopped crying since I woke up till I reached my aunts' home. When my brothers and I stepped in, there were two police officers and a forensic, cause they had to make sure that my grandad's death didn't have any foul play, my aunts pointed to the walkway and asked us to see him for the last time... 

My younger brother and I came in to see him under his blanket, head on the pillow with his mouth wide open, to be honest, up till now the image is still fresh in my mind. When my brother and I saw him, we almost immediately broke down to tears and walked to my aunt's room and balled our eyes out. 

We sat at my aunts home for a couple or hours while the adults were deciding how they wanted the funeral to be, while tears just couldn't stop flowing. Around 12pm two people came to take my grandad's body to do his make up and all and by the time it was 2pm we went down to the void deck to get started with the rituals and prayers, that was the last time I saw him, I mean, tonight and tomorrow night till Saturday, I can choose to see him in his coffin but honestly it'll be too hard to watch, walking pass his bedroom is already an ordeal for me though. 

Closing to 3? I received an answer from my friend but to be honest, I didn't know how to respond and I don't think I was in the mood of thinking about it.

Anyways from then till now and till tomorrow morning, I'll be at the void deck for the "wake" and well, I'm tired as hell but I don't know what else I can do. 

Anyways, here are the two pictures of my grandad and I. Signing off here cause, I don't really know what else to say other than I miss him so much and I love him like crazy, it's like a huge part of me died and I'll never forget all the times I've spent with him.

But one thing's for sure, this year or this week rather, freaken sucks.

My birthday was awesome, and the minute after 12am struck, it's like my life was flipped upside down. I swear, this week I've truly tasted the meaning of Emotional Rollercoaster. And honestly, screw it.